| Life |
[Apr. 7th, 2006|02:41 pm] |
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So I'm been doing some thinking and actually heard some good advice. I'm not happy with myself right now, but the thing is no one else can change that but me so I need to stand up and change my life so I am happy. Life is a gift not a curse and if you are miserable and depressed your not enjoying the gift of life. Now I'm not going off on some bogeous happy go lucky point of view. To live is hard there are stuggles and pit falls where it seems nothing can go right. But things get better and you move past those moments to better ones. Sometimes it's hard to believe that things will change but they do if you want them to and really believe in yourself. Now don't take that and say if I truely believe in world peace it will happen. But if you believe in yourself and are happy with who you are then that's what matters in life.
I'm trying to change things that I'm not happy with and make myself happy because unless I motivate myself because if you can't motivate yourself to achieve your goals no one else can! Even with support from family and friends you have to believe in yourself first! |
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[Mar. 21st, 2006|04:00 pm] |
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Feeling alittle depressed today, but it will go away. I'm going to see sad Lives of the Hollywood lovers tonight at Mainstreet so that should be fun.
Well Chris and I are going to start going to the gym tommorow no more excuses I want to lose 20 punds by April 11th and then hopefully 20 more anyway I'm trying to lose 100 pounds but I'm making small goals and rewards for losing weight. I also want to get a fat calibrator which is the best way to test if your at a healthy state. But I need to loose weight also. So anyway I'm going to go back to work yeah!! Blah Blah Blah |
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| keep in your thoughts and prayers |
[Feb. 22nd, 2006|03:21 pm] |
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My friend and co-worker Jay & Lorna Frizzelle their Baby Jake is having some intesinal problems and the are on their way to UVA to get him checked out. Please keep them in your thoughts and prayers we don't really know what's wrong yet, and in was serious enough for the Dr to send them to AMC and AMC to send them to UVA.
Thank you
Blessed Be |
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| hmm |
[Feb. 16th, 2006|11:31 am] |
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Well I got a migrane last night and I didn't sleep well. I don't know why besides the cat whihc won't stop meowing in the middle of the night, but that should end on the 3rd when we get her fixed!
Anyway I can't wait till the weekend which will be busy but at least it's not work. Shevacon is coming up soon and we have things to do to be ready for that, but I'm excited I hope it goes well.
Anyway I'd better get back to work I'll put in a longer entry later. |
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| Molly |
[Jan. 16th, 2006|12:36 pm] |
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So Molly got married on December 29th by the justice of the peace. She didn't invite any family except her mom and dad and her brother adam. His parents, his son , and an aunt. So it kind of sucked I would have liked to go but wait I couldn't have done anyway because I couldn't have gotten off work. Oh well I'm just ready to do something more with my life I just have to find it.
Anyway Chris is involved with a band called Kounter Kulture and they had a show the other week and it went great. They have really improved by 1,000 percent I was very impressed, especially with Chris's drum solo on their last song it was amazing. I didn't know he could play that fast.
Well next thing that is coming up is Shevacon and that is hopefully going to come off without a hitch. But I don't know I'm alittle nervouse we have 6 weeks till con and I wish we could meet more often than we are, but with work schedules and band practices it hasn't worked out to well. I just hope that they can hold off on a lot of practices or gigs on staruday till after con, but I don't know if that's likely.
I guess I'll just have to see how it comes together.
By the way I'm hopefully going to have a birthday party on March 11th I'll be 25 on the 4th but the 11th works out better for me for a party.
Well see on if it's going to happen a little closer to March.
Well back to work. |
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| Christmas |
[Dec. 21st, 2005|11:22 am] |
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Well I hope everyone is having a great holiday season.
I really don't like christmas that much it's become so commericalized and it's all about what you give people.
Well Frankly I don't want anything that's not useful for christmas.
What do I need for christmas...
I hat and gloves so I can keep warm this winter.
Other than that there's nothing else that I need this year.
I wouldn't mind receiving
Seether's Karma & Effect album
or Mr & Mrs. Smith DVD but those are things that I don't really need.
I'm just aggrivated and I seriosuly hate Christmas sometimes!!!!!!!! |
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| Happy |
[Nov. 23rd, 2005|04:49 pm] |
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So I found out last night my Cousin Molly is Having a Baby!!! She's due in August. So the whole families excited.
I'm going to Chris's grandmother's tommrow and then I have to wrok friday which sucks!!!!!! But oh well can't do anything about it. only 5 of us working yahoo!!
Anyway the two bands Chris is in are playing at Mainstreet on Sunday at like 7pm so everyone come out and support the guys.
Hopefully everything goes smoothly. We'll see. We back to work.........lovely |
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| monday |
[Oct. 24th, 2005|11:52 am] |
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Well everything seems to be going well the house is getting some fall cleaning and Chris and I are great.
Chris just started filming again and he was really beat up when he came home John better watch it or I'll come and get him lol
All that stunt stuff is hard on the body so I hope Chris doesn't do to much.
Both bands are going well haven't listen to either lately but they have been having regular practices getting ready for the gig on November 27th if they don't get moved again.
I've been reading Harry Potter and I'm on book 5 and it's hard to put it down.
I really like the books, there so much better than the movies. Well there's so much the movies leave out because of time.
We've been haning out with some new people well new for me and it's been fun went to a house warming last wednesday and a pig roast saturday so we've been pretty active.
I want to go play Nexus I haven't figured out how my character is going to get out of the mess she's in but she'll figure something out.
Plus Shevacon is getting closer and we need to start buying stuff for that at least the rooms are reserved.
Well back to work I need to get this list done.
Hope all is well with everyone else. |
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| Expelling Bad Karma |
[Sep. 28th, 2005|02:33 pm] |
OKay now that I am more calm and can tell what a royal pain the butt Paula was I will begin.
Wednesday 4 days before the wedding
My mother, Cousin and Paula drive down from Ohio.
I go get the at Sheetz and go in the store and get Paula how is talking on the phone and I said "Hey girl get off that phone and give me a hug" She says " I know I'm on the phone." continues to talk buy what she wants and then goes outside I try and joke with her again and she ignores me. Okay maybe she's just tired from the trip.
We get to my house and everything seems well she doesn't like Roxy or at least is uncomfotable around her. Paula's never been good with animals. I stay up a little then go to bed.
Thursday
I get nothing done at work because I keep getting calls. I get several calls from my mom telling me Paula has been talking onthe phone to this guy from Ohio and is planning on going to DC friday night with him As in friday night the night before my Wedding!!!
So I was getting angry and trying to stay focused at work, didn't happen btw.
I also found out that Molly and Paula went for a walk while I was at work no big deal right well... So they are on their way back to my house and Paula can't make it any farther so she flags down a guy in a red pickup truck and asks him to give her a ride back to my house. Molly being smart doesn't want to take the ride but doesn't want Paula to go alone. She says I'll ride in the back.
I get home and I'm not allowed in the house because the girls and when I say that I mean Amanda and Molly are decorating because it seems it was beneath Paula to help out in anyway with the decorating.
On a good note chris comes out of the house with 2 dozen red roses for me. That made me very happy.
So I'm exhausted from working and I want to stay in talk relax and have fun. Paula wants to go out and get drunk and party. I had already explained several times that I didn't want to drink that night, but it seemed what I wanted didn't matter to her at all. While we were all outside at my house talking Paula was inside talking to the guy she's been talking to she comes out and asks me what my address is. I ask her why? (This was the 5th or 6th time she had asked me) She said her dad needed it, so I gave it to her. (Lie #1)I go inside and ask her if George is coming down and she hangs the phone up. I then ask her flat out your not planning on going to DC on friday night are you? (Lie #2) She says No saturday after the wedding. I say okay, just so it's not friday night. of course at this point she's acting like a child sneaking around having her phone which by the way was the guy's phone because she couldn't get service in my area. (So she had this planned from the begining).
We head out to the club which there are 2 here at the time Main street hadn't reopened.
So Molly and I are in my car Amanda is in her car and Jenny and Paula are in another car. We get separted and Jenny and Paula get to Highlawn first. Molly and I look can't find a place to park and there's a line. So we go to the Pub and have Amanda meet us there. There's no cover charge at the Pub and there having Karokee and so we want to stay I get a call back from Jenny and she presuades us to walk up to Highlawn. The line is now longer and Amanda forgot her ID so we go back to the Pub and stay and tell them to come to us.
Well when Paula gets there her eyes are glazed and she looks drunk. I ask Jenny how much had she had to drink and she said 1 mixed drink. I don't know I think she was on some kind of drug.
Friday
Morning Breakfast with family she has this guy from Ohio come to my house after I told her no he can't come over and she leaves with him.
So she doens't come with us to do anything we needed to get done for the wedding. We have to call her to come to the nail appoint and she says she'd rather go to this other place I pitch a fit. She comes to where we are going and doesn't speak to me or anyone else and acts like a spolied brat that she is. Then she talks to me to get driections to the rehersal she comes brings this stupid guy to my rehearsal and then proceeds to offend everyone.
She goes up to Wes and asks him if he vomits, "do you throw up your food?"
She is rude to Owen and everyone else she doesn't speak to Chris's brother Travis.
Then after she's offened Wes she tries and flirts with him. I guess she found out how much money he made.
While we go thru the run thru she keeps telling the guy I know I know one more hour and when everyone is done she leaves and doesn't come to the rehersal dinner.
She then proceeds to go to DC the night before my wedding.
At this point I don't care if she even shows up.
Saturday
She shows up doesn't speak to me at all which for some reason seems to be her pattern this whole time. Molly talks to her and she seems to straighten up a little and then we get thru the wedding and everything seems fine. But people from work and other family members tell me that they saw her rocking back and forth and acting like she couldn't wait to get out of there. People from work who didn't know who she was asked me did that real skinny bridesmaid have some sort of problem she looked like she didn't want to be there she had some attitude problem.
So of course that makes me more upset and then she comes up and apologizes by saying "I'm sorry ,but I wanted to spend time with my friend(A guy from Ohio she can see anytime her best friend she calls a sister who she doesn't get to see but once or twice a year and she want's to spend time with him!!!GRR) So I say I understand Paula but this was suppose to be about us and family and chris and i not you and some guy. Well she couldn't understand.
I'm sorry but you know if you didn't want to be in the wedding then you should have said NO.
As you can tell we are no longer speaking to each other she hurt me and I don't want anything to do with a person so selfish.
So that's everything I think but it's over done with.
I'm sorry she was jealous that I have a man who treats me right and I found a man who wants to spend the rest of his life with me, but I'm married and happier than ever.
I hope she can find happines but I doubt she will, and that's sad. |
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| Wedding |
[Sep. 19th, 2005|01:37 pm] |
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So the wedding went off great, it had it's hitches and it's residual effects but all in all it was a beatiful ceremony and the end product is that Chris and I are married and happy. Later I am work out some of my anger at one person but that's not what this entry is about. I want to thank everyone who came thru for us Owen & Amy, Molly, Amanda, Drew, Travis, Joe & Elizabeth, Wes, Matt, Adam, and of course our families and friends. Thank you all so much!!!!!!!!
For our honeymoon Chris and I went to Williamsburg and stayed at Sunterra Powetan resort. We had a 2 bedroom condo, it was really nice had a dinning room table and kitchen. We spent most days sleeping in which was much needed with all the stress from the wedding. We played some putt-putt golf and walked downtown Williamsburg. Then of course on friday we went to Busch Gardens and road all of the roller coaster's there and got a surprise we thought the park would close at 6pm but it ended up being open till 10pm so it was cool being there all day even though it was a little hot. Aplengiest is defently my favorite and then Big Bad wolf. I just wish it wasn't so far to walk to each ride. It wouldn't have been a big deal if it hadn't been so hot and humid but it was fun and we had a great time. We came home saturday because I missed my doggy and I really wanted to sleep in my own bed. So we packed up and left we didn't get home till abou 11-11:30 at night but we got everything in and roxy was happy to be home and run in the backyard.
Well back to work for me. |
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| today |
[Aug. 22nd, 2005|10:16 pm] |
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I missed a friends call tonight I hate it when your cell phone dies and you have to recharge it. Hopefully they'll call back, now that my phone is charged.
Chris and I went and bought paint for the living room so we can get it painted before the new furniture comes. I'm really excited about painting.
Roxy is doing okay she's still adjusting to being alone and she bit Bear last week again so we've been watching her closely it only seems to happen when there's food involved. I don't know what to do with her. Maybe the best thing would be to give bear away but I love her so much.
I'm worried about one of my friends we'll just say M. M didn't sound good on the phone and I just hope M is okay. I hope nothing bad has happend to M. I hope M calls me again soon so I can know everything is okay with M.
I miss Lilly, and I'm still angry and upset that someone hit her, but I can't do anything about it.
My mom got her dress for the wedding and we ordered our favors. So things are coming together I hope all our friends can make it but I understand if they can't.
I do miss a friendship but I'm hoping that will come around in time with effort and paitence but only time will tell.
Chris hasn't been having to work so hard and that's been great for me because I get to see him more. We are hoping to get the painting done this weekend which I think is possible.
Well I'm off to bed I'm tired.
Love and Peace to everyone. |
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| What next!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
[Aug. 17th, 2005|09:30 am] |
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So Roxy bit the Bear once again damit I swear does anyone else want to throw anymore on my plate? Dear god I mean first P gets beat up by some guy then Lilly gets hit by a car and is killed, then my ringbearer quits and now Roxy bites my kitten. I have 3 weeks till my wedding and I can barely consentrate on that with everything else going on. It sucks and pisses me off to no end.
I don't think I can handle anything else and I don't want to have to handle anything else. |
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| Mourning |
[Aug. 15th, 2005|11:40 am] |
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So this weekend was the worst weekend
Lilly was hit by a car and killed. She was taken to soon she wasn't even two yet. ARRGG I'm angry it's not fair. It sickens me to think that someone hit our dog and then didn't even call us or try and get a hold of us. They took her collar they should have been able to get a hold of us. Unless they took it so no one would think it was a pet.
Roxy is depressed we all are
I can barely stand to look at her picture, because everytime I do I start to cry. I miss her so much! Our baby is gone and there nothing we can do about.
We buried her and then planted some Lilies to grow on her grave. Today is the first day that Roxy is alone in her crate and I don't know how she's going to be, she never been a lone before they were litter mates and haven't ever been apart. This sucks on some many levels!!
I wish I could change things turn back time and make sure they don't jump the gate, me let them out instead of Chris, I don't know anything to change what happened and allow us to have Lilly back in our lives.
I want my baby back ! |
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| Wedding news |
[Jul. 22nd, 2005|12:38 pm] |
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OKay so alot is happening and the next few weeks are just going to get worse.
The wedding is starting to come together if we can get everything paid for which seems to be coming along.
We are trying to decided on wording for invitations, and then once that is done then I can start printing them and stuffing them. I have people who have offered to help do that so that's cool.
Our roommate is moving out soon and that is helpful so we can get the house back in order instead of the disaster it's in. Hopefully I'll get my living room back instead of having all the band equpment in there.
Family is ticking me off, I'm sorry but if your not helping pay for our wedding back off with your opinions and suggestions we don't want them and don't need them. Chris and I are not traditional kind of people and we don't really want to do all that etiqutte crap so back off!!
I'm not trying to be mean but damnit these people are stressing us out well you should do it this way and you should have this person in your wedding and you should make sure that this person has something to do. And grow up some of these people need to. Something doesn't go their way or they don't like it they are like the kid on the play ground saying "screw you I'm taking my ball and going home" when something doesn't go their way. Grow up your an adult not a 5year old child!!
I've got things I have to do and I'm sorry if I haven't asked for help but sometimes I just want to do it myself if I need help I'll ask! But I don't need help right now with some stuff so back off please!!
Damn
I'm trying to keep my house clean which is hard at times and I'm trying to keep everything organized and ready to go for this wedding I really don't need the stress of people nagging at me. I feel bad I haven't had time for any of my friends lately because I've got stuff I need to get done for the wedding, and it takes priority over everything!
What sucks is we have everyone on our list including people who don't get along, but we are inviting our friends and that's that but we totaled up the number of guests and it's 235 and we have to start cutting people we can not afford that many people. So we ARE CUTTING people and if anyone who reads this journal which aren't many people but if you get an annoucement instead of an invitation we're sorry but we have to cut people because we can not pay for that many people. I cut 15 people already and most of which were at work and that sucks!! But I don't have a choice. Some were friends that I had in college that chris doesn't really know and I hated to cut them out but what can you do at least they'll get an annoucment.
I'm trying to do as much as I can without bothering Chris because he's doing so much and he doesn't need to worry about the small stuff, but on the other side I don't like making decsions without talking with him first since we are doing this together, because it our wedding the day is not about indivuals it's about two people coming together, two families so it's just crazy and it will get worse but that's okay at least we'll get thru it together.
Well off to lunch I feel a little better, I needed to vent, I'm glad I have a place to do that. |
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| New arrivals |
[Jun. 7th, 2005|05:30 pm] |
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So Chris and I have a new addition to our house. Another cat, or in the case she's a kitten. She's so cute. Her name is Berumda Bear and she is one of Owen & Amy's kittens. Akasha took to her really well which I'm glad for and the dogs of course love her death. I'll have to figure out how to put a picture in here so you can see her.
Anyway Chris got WoW and we are both playing now it's fun and I enjoy it. I'd rather be playing Nexus on the weekends but until we can get everyone together we probably won't play. Which I understand totaly I'm just a Nexus-a-holic.
I got LMP's new Cd and it's awesome it sounds really great. Dirty Laundry's video is hott.
Anyway not to much going on work, I need to clean the house which is what's planned for tonight.
Well back to work for the next 5 minutes. |
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| what a can of worms |
[May. 3rd, 2005|03:04 pm] |
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so per my last journal entry well we are not inviting any of the controversial people. The people that are being invited do not have a problem with anyone else on the guest list. so if you do not get an invitation it is your own behavior or actions that have deamed you to not get one. I am sorry but I will not have my wedding turn into a mess so if you don't get an invitation I'm sorry but it is for the best of the whole event.
I know I opened up a whole can of worms, but this is my journal and I'm not sorry about venting here this is where I should vent so don't take it personally I'm just getting things off my chest so I don't blow up and really piss people off. So don't take it personally. |
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| Weding |
[May. 2nd, 2005|03:00 pm] |
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Okay so I'm happy that Howard has agreed to being a groomsmen in our wedding, one more hurdle to go thru to make sure this is a certianty.
I do have one thing to say to some people who may have a problem with this. I am sorry if you do not like it but this is Chris and I's wedding and if you don't like someone in the wedding party or people we may be inviting then just don't come because I do not want a scene at my wedding. If people can not be adults and be cordial to others for a couple hours then just stay home. That also goes for my grandmother and anyone else related, soon to be related, or not related to me.
I want my wedding to be full of love and happiness and I want all my friends to be there and share in it but I understand if people can not put away there differences and come and share with us. To quote Bambi "If you can't say something nice don't say anything at all."
So please take this into consideration for the few who don't get along, please don't ruin my wedding for your own selfish reasons.
One more thing this entry is about a handful of people who I know may cause problems this not directed at one person but several, so please just take my advice, if you even think there is a chance that you may cause a scene please DO NOT COME to my wedding.
Thank you |
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| hmm |
[May. 2nd, 2005|09:32 am] |
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Well I found out Saturday that my Great Aunt Lillian was dying and probably wouldn't make it thru the night.
Mom called me Sunday and told me she had died at 4am.
I want to gome home for the funeral but I can't, neither Chris or I can afford to take off work. So I fell like crap cause I can't go.
My grandma had 5 brothers and sisters. Now there is only my Uncle Gilbert and my grandma.
So I feel shitty because I can't go, but there's nothing I can really do I don't have the time to take, so I can't lose that money right now.
Well while updating this I just got the rest of my bonus check which is cool, so I may be able to go I don't know it just depends on when everything is.
Right now I just want to go home curl up in my bed with chris and the dogs and cry.
I'm trying not to cry at work but it's hard. It's just sinking in so today is hard day for me. |
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| work sucks |
[Apr. 21st, 2005|11:29 am] |
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Today is one of those days you wish you could crawl back into bed and start the day over again. Work sucks and I wish I didn't have to be here why isn't it saturday yet so I can go play nexus? Or firday friday works since I'm going to watch the one acts. I hate having a bad day.. oh well last night I worked out and did legs I'm not sore today which I thought i would be but i'm not one good thing.
Chris and I got home last night and he had let the girsl be outside while we were gone well they got out and I suppose a neighbor let them back into the yard cause they were in the yard when we got home but the stunk I mean they smelled so bad... I had to give them a bath again and they still don't smell the greatest, so that means when we are at A&O we have to either keep them in their crate or take them with us and tie them up out there.
Damn dogs.
Well back to a sucky day at work, please make it go by fast so I can go home. |
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